Howard knows deep down that he will. Eventually. He can't keep bingeing forever, he just has to ride this out, but as logical as that is, he feels like he's at the bottom of a deep well and can't even see the way up. He scooches on the couch over to Cedric, craving more of that touch that grounds him.

"I'm so scared, Ced." He leans a head against Cedric's shoulder and hugs the jar close.